When my time runs out I hope that I will have a testimony to the goodness of God in many ways and many places. Rather than creating an image for ourselves and a legacy for ourselves, Christians are called to testify to what God is doing and has done. One of the challenges of being a witness rather than a driver of history, is to let go of the illusion of control. This is a recurring, maybe daily, exercise for people of faith.
Jesus reveals his deity and our resurrection in the account of Lazurus’ death and resucitation in John 11. When Lazarus got (very) sick his sisters sent word to Jesus: “Lord, the one you love is sick.” Jesus was 15-20 miles away from them when he got this message. Based on what the sisters say later, they thought Jesus would come quickly to help them, but he didn’t. Jesus stayed for two more days, and he knew that Lazarus would die. The things that I’m praying about now, the things you pray for now are completely visible to the Lord. He is in control, not us. “He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” Colossians 1:17
Jesus tells Martha that if she believes she will see the glory of God. Our role is to believe, watch and testify; making everything work out is his business.
When you notice your own over desire for control, apply Philippians 4:6-7 to yourself. Paul wrote us a Holy Spirit breathed prescription. 1. You don’t have to be anxious. 2. Tell God what you want. 3. Tell God what you’re thankful for regarding your requests. 4. Look for peace to come your way.